Realizing you're different is hard.
Thinking you found someone that you relate to.
A best friend even.
And getting your heart broken for the fifth time by a girl is hard.
This is my decision:
I am staying in Utah, and if he wants to be with me I think he should only serve for four years. Then go to school, and finish his degree so we can start a family. In this time (which he's serving), I can get grad school under my belt.
Being told, "you seem so much older than 21". Then saying "you're so much like my room-mate", who you complain about (who is 21), who you say I can relate to, and would get along with, doesn't make me feel very good about myself.
P.S. I quit facebook tonight/today.
My grammar sucks, my emotions are crazy, and I just want to have a baby so that I can feel constant love. Not a great mix, but this is life and life goes on, hopefully.
“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before--more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
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