LMFAO & The Far East Movement

I want to go to this concert, I've been listening to the radio religiously today. I'm bound and determined to win some tickets! I adore Far East Movement and well, LMFAO just makes me want to dance. Oh man, I feel like my life would be complete if I went. We shall see :) 

Tad Bits, muy interesante.

This evening I found out that happiness shouldn't be a target, necessarily, but something you work toward on a daily basis. Sure, it's attainable but it's constantly changing. Being happy isn't buying new things. Being happy is knowing even when you're in the darkest of dark places in your life that everything will be alright. It's that peaceful feeling that comes over an individual in the saddest moments. 

I'm becoming the LDS person I had always hoped and wished and prayed for. A temple worthy member who loves everyone in abundance no matter their faith. A member who understands the promises of the Lord. A member who wants and loves to go to church and church related activities. I've always wanted this, and finally I have it! I'm a very blessed individual and I'm so humble in knowing that my Father in heaven knows me and love me for who and what I am. I know that he will never leave my side. 

I can figure out the point of anything. My family says I don't have common sense. I get very offended when they say this. I feel like I'm a very smart, independent, fun-loving individual. Just because I wouldn't necessarily know what to do if I was being robbed doesn't mean much, in reality. But, if that's the best thing that you can come up with, apparently I haven't done enough things in life that prove I don't have common sense. So, I may do a few things without necessarily using my head, but so does everyone else in the world. What is your point? I think I've done pretty good on my own for almost two years and that says something. 

LOVE LIFE! 

Waiting . . .

This song is important to my heart. It taught me to never give up, and it also taught me that I had to become the change, well as much of it as the world would let me. 

Me and all my friends 
We're all misunderstood 
They say we stand for nothing and 
There's no way we ever could 

Now we see everything that's going wrong 
With the world and those who lead it 
We just feel like we don't have the means 
To rise above and beat it 

So we keep waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

It's hard to beat the system 
When we're standing at a distance 
So we keep waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

Now if we had the power 
To bring our neighbors home from war 
They would have never missed a Christmas 
No more ribbons on their door 
And when you trust your television 
What you get is what you got 
Cause when they own the information, oh 
They can bend it all they want 

That's why we're waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

It's not that we don't care, 
We just know that the fight ain't fair 
So we keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

And we're still waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change 
One day our generation 
Is gonna rule the population 
So we keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change

Wrapping up the week (Cause my weeks end on Sunday)

1. I will not compare myself to other people. It's not worth it. I will compare myself to myself. Meaning, I need to start keeping a journal, at least a weekly journal. Or, blog it off!

2. I'm doing a juice cleanse, and no I'm not excited! But, secretly . . . I am. I cannot wait to start losing where I need to be losing. And gaining where I need to gaining. Physically, mentally and spiritually.

3. Getting rid of racism is now something I plan to work harder at achieving through my lifetime.

4. I learned that you can drink Herbal Tea, so long as it doesn't contain tannic acid.

Just because you don't agree with my boyfriend, doesn't mean that you have power over me. I do things you disagree with that do not even effect you. You do things I disagree with that effect not only me, but other human beings that deserve more than what you give. And I'm still waiting for that apology. Today in church I was attempting to figure out how to forgive you, and it just came to me that I need to forgive you once you are apologetic toward me for hurting my feelings. I don't see this happening anytime soon, and it breaks my heart. RACISM is a disease, and you would be the first person I would cure. 

Tattoo . . .

My next tattoo will be on my left foot of two hands holding the world. 

To find a picture has been incredibly difficult, but I will not stop

looking for this masterpiece. 

(Or a scripture . . . this too has been something I'm just letting come to me, so I guess we'll see which one wins, the hands holding the world or the scripture.) Either way it will be beautiful! :) 

A Walk Through Hell

In middle school, chica-wang introduced this amazing band to me. I've loved them sense, and this song seems to follow me around. From middle school, to high school, now on to college. Stefanie was listening to this song one day on the way to I believe, Sweet Tooth Fairy and it made me smile! I then made a mix tape "CD" for Tania and Stefanie with songs that I adore and remind me of them. Now, I just love reminiscing to this amazing song that will never leave my heart. 

And if I could swim, I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving, sunken chest.

'Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in.

And if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And I'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
And I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me; I'd remind you who you are under their shell.

I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...

And if they send a whirlwind, I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me.
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born.

I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...

Through hell for you
Through hell for you
Without you, without you...

Now I've walked through hell for you.
What's an adventurer to do, 
But rest these feet at home with you?

Ain't No Reason

This song is beautiful, for more than one reason. If you know me, you know that ever word of this song is so raw and true. Being blunt is in my nature. He sings this song amazingly and gives it so much power. Much love to him and this song ... 

Ain't No Reason - Brett Dennen

There ain’t no reason things are this way.

Its how they always been and they intend to stay.
I can't explain why we live this way, we do it everyday. 


Preachers on the podium speakin’ to saints..
Prophet on the sidewalk beggin’ for change,
Old ladies laughing from the fire escape, cursing my name.
I got a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same,
A window and a pigeon with a broken wing,
You can spend your whole life workin’ for something
Just to have it taken away.
People walk around pushin back their debts.
Wearing pay checks like necklaces and bracelets,
Talking ‘bout nothing, not thinking ‘bout death,
Every little heartbeat, every little breath.
People walk a tight rope on a razors edge
Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons.
It could be a bomb or a bullet or a pen
Or a thought or a word or a sentence.

There Ain't no reason things are this way.
It's how they always been and they intend to stay
I don’t know why I say the things I say, but I say them anyway.
But love will come set me free
Love will come set me free, I do believe
Love will come set me free, I know it will
Love will come set me free, yes.
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Prison walls still standing tall,
Some things never change at all.
Keep on buildin’ prisons, gonna fill them all,
Keep on buildin’ bombs, gonna drop them all.
Workin' your fingers bare to the bone,
Breakin' ya back, make ya sell your soul,
Like a lung thats filled with coal, suffocating slow
The wind blows wild and I may move,
The politicians lie and I am not fooled.
You don't need no reason or a three piece suit to argue the truth.
The air on my skin and the world under my toes,
Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes,
Chaos and commotion wherever I go, love I try to follow.

Love will come set me free
Love will come set me free, I do believe
Love will come set me free, I know it will
Love will come set me free, yes.

There ain't no reason things are this way
It’s how they always been and they intend to stay
I can't explain why we live this way, we do it everyday.

Living just to find emotion

Some say we choose our destiny, others say we don't. I can agree with both groups of people.Life is beautiful; from conception to birth, from birth to adulthood, from adulthood to death. I find every aspect, step, and journey through life to be absolutely breath taking. 

When things happen to me I think about how it is going to, or how it does relate to the bigger picture. If something bad or good happens right out of the gate, I don't necessarily understand it, but when other little bad and/or good things happen I can see why the initial thing had to happen. So, did I choose for it to happen? I don't know, but a lot of the things that happen to me seem to fit me, good or bad. 

At this point in my life I've realized a few things. People DO in fact change, but on their time, not my time. Life IS rough, but it is rough for everyone! And that it is never too late to start what you wanted to start yesterday, today! Life is beautiful, even on its darkest days. 

BOYCE AVENUE

This makes my heart smile. One of my favorites! :)

"Change the voices, In your head
Make them like you Instead."

Smell the roses . . .

I get why people tell me to stop and smell the roses, for I tell others the same thing. I want to tell all the voices, not just the external voices and not just the voices inside my head, but also inside my heart to just go away. I have people pulling at my heart-strings. I have others pulling at my brain; stretching and expanding it with each moment that passes. I asked a professor of mine if I should pursue something that makes me want to cry every second, or something that keeps me calm and on track. Of course she would say something that makes me want to cry every second. I knew what the answer would be, but thought maybe I put too much on my shoulders, and the answer might be different. I just want to be able to breathe, not just inhaling and exhaling, but to really be able to breathe to catch a second for myself. I find even on my days off there isn't much time for that. I'm so used to being busy I give myself tasks to do even throughout my days off because if I don't I feel like I'm not doing enough as a person. Oh,  but  I  am  !

I have made myself take SUMMER semester off. One minute I'm relieved, the next minute I'm in panic mode. I don't feel as though I will have my support system i.e., my colleagues there to push and love me like they do on a daily basis. I guess it will be my proof that I really do have it in me to do what I have to. Wow! Come this time next year I will have my Bachelor of Social Work degree, never had I thought I would be this successful in my college career. But, I have done this for me. At least this portion. I've done everything up to Social Work for my family, but now I'm doing what I love and what I know is right.

Individuals say, "Oh, it's just a piece of paper. Just because you have a degree, doesn't mean you have common sense." I refuse to get upset about that anymore, because you know what? That piece of paper is what has helped me realize what I want to do in this world, with the people of this world, and for the generations to come. I am no longer a person who just sits and minds my own business. I help my fellow human-beings by whatever means I can. THAT is what my education has taught me! That I'm not the only person in this big, huge, and sometimes lonely world. It's taught me that life is beautiful, and that if you ask for help you'll more than likely receive it. (And that failing will only put you where you're meant to be.) It's taught me that no one has to share my opinion, and that all I can do is respect other peoples opinions. It's taught me that there is no right and wrong - but there is love. LOVE is something that cannot necessarily be taught by books or by lecture, but by feeling. Love and a smile are the two words, that in any language, can only be taught through feeling. It's beautiful, truly beautiful and I'm beyond blessed to have learned this. So, no, when you say my degree will get me no where, know this, it already has.

Just smile, it's only temporary. <3

The world at my fingertips

At 18 I thought I had made it to adult hood.

At 19 I thought I had life figured out.

At 20 I thought I was no longer a teenager, and realized life had already started. 

At 21 I think life is the most beautiful journey, given to me, as a gift.

I no longer feel like I miss my childhood. I've finally let it go. Yes, 2 days after I turned 21, and I have let my childhood go. Why? Because I am now a role model and am beginning to be the change I always looked for in the world. I refuse to be passive any longer. I refuse to hold in my feelings. I am a tool in the Lord's hands, and I now know this is why I'm still on this planet. "I am blessed", is an understatement. 

Jems

Rolling down your windows on the car ride home from work.
Realizing you have FRIDAY and SATURDAY off.
Sushi with amazing girls and remembering tomorrow is your birthday.

Life is far too beautiful lately. :)