Words To Live By

Just a few of my favorite words to live by:

Service Above Self.  Differences can be a strength. See everything; overlook a great deal; correct a little. Pain is weakness leaving the body. Don't look where you fall, but where you slipped. Whatever you are be a good one. Don't compromise yourself, you're all you've got. Never believe in mirrors or newspapers. Work out your own salvation, do NOT depend on others. Ask, don't assume. 

I had to attach some of my favorite songs I found, these are on repeat constantly in my car, apartment and phone.
As always,
Peace & Love

aha, this last one is amazing ... the guys looks kinda funny but he sounds AMAZING. <3 Weezy! 

Crying

Today I cried after volunteering with this little old man and his wife who's on hospice. Well, we were talking and having a good time. Then he goes on to talk about his son's who had over dosed on drugs a while back. He was fine and then I knew he was getting choked up. He continued and said what's hard is to know how hard it is on my wife. When I would leave the house about five years ago, she would go downstairs and scream at the top of her lungs because of how much pain and sadness she was feeling. He was crying and then he reached out his hand to his wife and he said grab my hand. She grabbed his hand and he said I love you sweet heart. I was bawling like a baby.

Afterward we walked outside and I just started crying even more and said, "See this is why I can't be a Social Worker, I cry too much!" Emogene said, "No, I think it's good that you cry and show your emotions that lets the other people around you know it's alright. I think crying shows real empathy. You were in there for not even an hour, you barely know them and you are empathizing. That shows you are genuine and there for the right reasons."

This made me feel so much better about my emotions. I can't help it when I see something so terribly sad but to cry. I used to hide away all emotions but you know what? I'm done doing that. I adore volunteering! It makes me such a better person and I'm blessed to volunteer with amazing clients/patients!

P.S. Count your many blessings! Your last day could be today.

Gold's Gym: People Watching

I worked out this morning as usual a few minutes after 7 because for some reason I hit every red light possible. That's fine; I won't let that stop me! It was a great work out. Beyond great, amazing! I burned 2600 calories in an hour and a half and even got to sit in the sauna for about 15 minutes and stretch. I feel invincible in there. When else can I touch the concrete? Not only does my stomach get in the way but my boobs as well. Not in there! All your muscles get elongated and I can touch my palms to the floor. (Not crouching!)

There are a few people I watch there, because they come about the same time or a few minutes later or earlier than me. There are two old guys one is I believe 98 and the other told me today he's going to be 87 in September. There are a few older ladies that I talk to as well and encourage me, from the ages of 45-69. They tell me I'm doing great I think it's just a "grandma/grandpa" attitude to encourage someone who works their ass off for what they want, not many young people are like that so I'm told.

There are also a ton of Soldiers, mostly Marines that come at 7:30 AM sharp. I'm on the elliptical or stair master when they show up and I just watch their endurance grow and increase weekly. They wear these shirts that say: Pain is Weakness Leaving the Body. I want one. Doubt I could get one because I can't join but it would be legit. Well, I was watching them particularly today (not creeper status) as I was walking out of the sauna particularly. They were carrying each other. Now for the average person, that's not so average, like me that would be a work out. Unfortunately you and I both know why they're doing those kinds of drills. I teared up a bit and kept walking and watched the one guy do about 10 sets meaning taking the guy on his shoulders from one end of the gym to the other. He was so QUICK! I would want him to be my partner if I was in the military.

As I was driving home I was listening to Beyonce then decided to change the CD to the Dixie Chicks. I put it on Shuffle and the first song was Traveling Soldier. I teared up again and couldn't help but thinking about this war, those guys, all military - past, present and future. Well, all I can say is I love all our soldiers and am happy that I got to think about this. It sucks, it's not something I love to think about. Actually, I hate it but it reminds me how bad I wanted to be in the Air Force and I feel like I missed out on a huge opportunity. Not like I can change anything though. Life goes on and I'm so proud of all the soldiers out there. Katie Nay, I am especially proud of you. It is awesome to see a girl become a Marine. Maybe you could get me one of those shirts?

The way things used to be . . .

I've been dating this guy for what has only been a month but seem more like eternity. You know when you're little or I should say in middle school and you have a crush on who seems to be the perfect guy for you, etc? You know how you didn't think, Oh am I going to marry him? Or, Am I going to have kids with this guy? You didn't care about anything except how your hair and makeup looked? Why can't I go back to that? Every guy I've date these past 2 years have all had that potential to be my husband. I'm tired of looking at it this way but I just can't help it. The guy I'm dating told me I'm taking things too quickly. My views on it are if you want me to have sex with you, you at least have to meet my family first. Come on! I'm a virgin and am proud of this fact; I don't know many anymore except for certain Mormon friends. I'm waiting for the right guy . . . Am I wrong in wanting him to meet my family though? I know this is a public forum and it's like a "diary" and I shouldn't put my stuff of blast but come on, we're all adults and can handle this kind of talk. Suggestions? Guidance? I'd love it. Oh, but none of this . . . "Hold on to it" "Don't let anyone take it from you" Cause really, that's why I still have it, I'm not stupid! :)