Currently

In 8 days I begin the last first day of my Undergraduate degree. I will be an intern, doing an internship with The Dixon Girls. I will be a mentor for many young women, for women from all different backgrounds, cultures, ages, and current situations. I am so happy, excited, and thrilled. I know that this will be a great opportunity for me.

At this time my thoughts go to how my 5 year plan is almost up. I have a mear four months until that 5 year plan is over with.

Graduate from high school.
Obtain my CNA.
Graduate from SLCC w/ my Associate of Science.
... Graduate from the U of U with my BSW (Bachelor of Social Work).

I will have my BSW, then what? That is where I am in my life right now. Do I go international? Do I stay in America? Do I stay in Utah? Do I become a personal trainer? Do I follow the U of U football team around for the rest of my life? I'm 21, and have far too many choices, decisions.

This I know, and believe to be true:

“It is not what you can do for your country, but what you can do for all of mankind.” 
― Mike Norton

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" In your case, dying isn't the best revenge."

So, I love Grey's Anatomy if  people hadn't figured that out. I follow the series, and I am currently watching the series from the beginning of Season I. As I was watching Season II  this above quote was said. As I listened, as I thought, and contemplated I thought - as my life continues, I often wonder if dying wouldn't make my life easier. Not a suicide type of dying, but just a random death. Random thoughts like, why didn't I die back in 2007? Why didn't I die when I went under again in 2010, why didn't I die in the other three car accidents I have been in? Why haven't I just peacefully fallen in a constant sleep while sleeping? I don't know if it is just me, or if these are more common thoughts by the populace. 

As the show continued I, and as my day has continued I have thought more about the quote and realized dying isn't the best revenge toward life. The best revenge is to live it, and live it well, with dignity, with my head held high. With love, and compassion for my fellow human beings, and animals. 

Life is beautiful, and I am going to live it the way God would intend me to live it. Happily, fulfilling the people and animal's lives on this planet which are in need of me, my abilities, my skills and my life. 

xoxo,

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L I F E .

First you're a child, not understanding life. 

Then you're a teenager, rebellious toward things/people who hold authority.

Then you're a young adult, realizing that those things/people who held authority were correct.

Next, you're at a stage in life which is HARD, negative things happen MORE and MORE often than you can PLAN. You are lonely, and just want someone to take away all the pain and heartache. You are sad, you are mad, you are glad. The cycle just repeats. 

Hearts become broken, and searching for "love" goes nowhere. Not stopping to search, and not stopping the search. Wanting people to pay attention, yet not being an attention seeking whore is hard at this stage of life. Just wanting someone to look you in the eyes and say, "I know what you're going through. I know it is hard, but it does get better!" 

Trying to stay on the path of righteousness. Having faith that the path you are on, is the correct one. Having faith that life is going to get better, and that life is going to bring you much happiness. No longer wanting life to be perfect, just good enough so you can be happy. 

Life has been one of the most challenging experiences. 

Life has been one of the most beautiful experiences.

Life has given me many treasures.

Life has given me a lot of loop holes.

Life has given me a reason to live it to the fullest.

Life doesn't just happen.

Life makes you realize there has to be a bigger picture.

I have finally figured out this bigger picture, 

thanks to many people in my life who love me, and whom I love and adore. 

The Thought Process

Why aren't people as loving as they should be?

Why aren't people as accepting as they should be?

Why aren't people kind like they should be?

I understand people have different experiences in life. These experiences determine people's thoughts and opinions. These experiences either make you "better" or "bitter". These experiences make you either enjoy your ride in life, or hate your ride in life. They help you become who you are! 

Love life, dance in the rain, and never forget to smile. Even if you are sad, smiling will get you through it.