Twisted Thinking - Therapy Session #4

Today in Therapy my counselor suggested that I have Twisted Thinking/Distorted Thinking especially in the aspect of Jumping to Conclusions in the realm of Fortune Telling and Mind-reading.

I hate change, as most people do - but I REALLY hate change. Here soon I will be doing a lot of changes, and my counselor thinks I'm ready . . . so here I go face first into a dive. Which is another thing we talked about.

My anxiety is now in the realm of "normal" anxiety, whoever calls it normal is CRAZY. This is not normal. I feel totally out of control when my anxiety hits. BUT, I am learning to deal with it in a positive manner. I'm so excited to be a grown up, dealing with my feelings like a "normal person", again who's to say who is normal? As I go onward and upward I have a lot of people to thank, especially the big guy upstairs :)

Smile, it's all only temporary!

Defense Mechanism

Mine: Laughter

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Yesterday in counseling we talked about defense mechanisms and how mine is laughter. The best part about that is that it is a very healthy defense mechanism. She definitely wants me to work on it, but for now she says continue doing what I'm doing because of other homework she finds more important. She asked me to make a conscious effort to recognize when I am doing it however. It's amazing to see and to reflect my life with a counselor. At first, counseling didn't seem like a great idea. After the intake, I figured I could handle things on my own still. And that the counselor couldn't tell me anything I couldn't already tell myself. I was beyond wrong, and I would recommend counseling to almost anyone.

My homework was to look at my life very objectively, to ensure I am fulfilling baby steps and not overdoing anything. I would say the puzzle is about 35% of the way put together, after 2 sessions. What a great feeling, and I am accepting that as a great accomplishment, even though this is very untypical of me. I am growing up, accepting my emotions, and not allowing them to define me and my actions. 

Life is beautiful :)