"Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." - MLKJ

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." - Martin Luther King Jr.


All the hatred, yet all the love. Do not fight, do not back down. This, and so much more Martin Luther King Jr. not only said to do, but taught to do, through example. Close people to me know about some recent quarrels I've had regarding Abraham. At first I thought it was going to be a joking/light conversation over some pool, which turned into me loosing respect, yet still maintaining my composure. I felt Martin Luther King Jr., my childhood hero, and my now adulthood mentor, there with me that night. I never got upset, on the outside. I never raised my voice. I was calm and had full composure and my only worry was my safety. How I was going to get out of a situation that continued to escalate. He (MLKJ) continued to say, "stay calm, and do not show defeat. BUT, get out!" Now, this could have been my heavenly father as well, but I continuously had the above quote going through my head. Me getting upset that evening would have done NOTHING! I didn't get defensive, I wasn't argumentative and now this quarrel is still open. 


This person and I were in the same quarters about a week later yet, this person was still very rude to me. I continued to hold and keep my composure. 


About another week later this person texted me telling me we needed to talk. I let this person know we didn't need to talk because this person will never agree with my relationship, and that is not my problem. I said, "Let me learn on my own, let me grow on my own. I am putting myself first. And if I were to get hurt, which I highly doubt, but that it would't be the first time." 


My biggest problem with this entire quarrel is over the color of his skin. It's just pigment. Abraham is a beautiful human being. He has never hurt me: emotionally or physically. Yeah, I was sad that he didn't come the couple times he said he was going to. But, I would much rather him learn and become proficient in his job, as a soldier, fighting for me and my country. I want to get him back alive when he comes home from war. Racism is disgusting, racism is something I will never be alright with. I will not stand silent, I will not act like everything is alright. Not to mention when you call me dumb, and stupid, and tell me to smell the coffee. No, you smell the coffee and you open your eyes. You will lose me as a member of your family if this continues. I will not stand for it. 

"I look to a day when people will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character." - MLKJ

For Abraham

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try, try to divide, something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there ain't no one

No one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

LMFAO & The Far East Movement

I want to go to this concert, I've been listening to the radio religiously today. I'm bound and determined to win some tickets! I adore Far East Movement and well, LMFAO just makes me want to dance. Oh man, I feel like my life would be complete if I went. We shall see :) 

Tad Bits, muy interesante.

This evening I found out that happiness shouldn't be a target, necessarily, but something you work toward on a daily basis. Sure, it's attainable but it's constantly changing. Being happy isn't buying new things. Being happy is knowing even when you're in the darkest of dark places in your life that everything will be alright. It's that peaceful feeling that comes over an individual in the saddest moments. 

I'm becoming the LDS person I had always hoped and wished and prayed for. A temple worthy member who loves everyone in abundance no matter their faith. A member who understands the promises of the Lord. A member who wants and loves to go to church and church related activities. I've always wanted this, and finally I have it! I'm a very blessed individual and I'm so humble in knowing that my Father in heaven knows me and love me for who and what I am. I know that he will never leave my side. 

I can figure out the point of anything. My family says I don't have common sense. I get very offended when they say this. I feel like I'm a very smart, independent, fun-loving individual. Just because I wouldn't necessarily know what to do if I was being robbed doesn't mean much, in reality. But, if that's the best thing that you can come up with, apparently I haven't done enough things in life that prove I don't have common sense. So, I may do a few things without necessarily using my head, but so does everyone else in the world. What is your point? I think I've done pretty good on my own for almost two years and that says something. 

LOVE LIFE! 

Waiting . . .

This song is important to my heart. It taught me to never give up, and it also taught me that I had to become the change, well as much of it as the world would let me. 

Me and all my friends 
We're all misunderstood 
They say we stand for nothing and 
There's no way we ever could 

Now we see everything that's going wrong 
With the world and those who lead it 
We just feel like we don't have the means 
To rise above and beat it 

So we keep waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

It's hard to beat the system 
When we're standing at a distance 
So we keep waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

Now if we had the power 
To bring our neighbors home from war 
They would have never missed a Christmas 
No more ribbons on their door 
And when you trust your television 
What you get is what you got 
Cause when they own the information, oh 
They can bend it all they want 

That's why we're waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

It's not that we don't care, 
We just know that the fight ain't fair 
So we keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

And we're still waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change 
One day our generation 
Is gonna rule the population 
So we keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change 

We keep on waiting 
Waiting on the world to change

Wrapping up the week (Cause my weeks end on Sunday)

1. I will not compare myself to other people. It's not worth it. I will compare myself to myself. Meaning, I need to start keeping a journal, at least a weekly journal. Or, blog it off!

2. I'm doing a juice cleanse, and no I'm not excited! But, secretly . . . I am. I cannot wait to start losing where I need to be losing. And gaining where I need to gaining. Physically, mentally and spiritually.

3. Getting rid of racism is now something I plan to work harder at achieving through my lifetime.

4. I learned that you can drink Herbal Tea, so long as it doesn't contain tannic acid.

Just because you don't agree with my boyfriend, doesn't mean that you have power over me. I do things you disagree with that do not even effect you. You do things I disagree with that effect not only me, but other human beings that deserve more than what you give. And I'm still waiting for that apology. Today in church I was attempting to figure out how to forgive you, and it just came to me that I need to forgive you once you are apologetic toward me for hurting my feelings. I don't see this happening anytime soon, and it breaks my heart. RACISM is a disease, and you would be the first person I would cure. 

Tattoo . . .

My next tattoo will be on my left foot of two hands holding the world. 

To find a picture has been incredibly difficult, but I will not stop

looking for this masterpiece. 

(Or a scripture . . . this too has been something I'm just letting come to me, so I guess we'll see which one wins, the hands holding the world or the scripture.) Either way it will be beautiful! :)