Figuring Out Your Purpose

"SMILE" - What a simple word! I was stopped at a light while driving on Tuesday to class when a couple of people on the side of the road were asking for money. On the other side of the sign it said, "SMILE!" I smiled then I grabbed the change out of my change holder in my car when they said, "Your smile was all we needed, we like to smile too you know!" I thought what a great thing to want and deserve in life. 

Today was an amazing day. I miss the boy a ton this evening. I think the biggest reason is because I want to talk to him about what a great day I had. I seriously smiled and laughed so much today. Sometimes, for no reason at all. I LOVED it! Also, someone put so much trust in me and told be a lot about their current life circumstances. I had such an amazing feeling, the feeling I get when I feel the spirit. I knew what I was doing at that very moment was why I was still on this planet. I'm beyond blessed for that opportunity and am beyond excited to continue on my journey. 

Letters

I've written a letter for my boyfriend for every day that he's been gone. ahaha  - it's a little pathetic. I'm going to continue doing that, but in a journal. Though, I'm only going to write him a letter & send one a week to cap up and summarize my life. I know he would love it, but I know he would also think I had no life. Well, who's kidding who here? I don't.

I got my first letter from him. I'm so beyond excited. When I went to my mailbox I had a ton of junk mail - see one of my first posts about how much I despise that kind! - BUT tucked in it all was a letter from him! Oh man, I love him oh so much. I could re-read that letter and never once get tired of it. :)

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller 

Football, Love & Abraham

Abraham and I spent dang near 24 hours together and I feel like they were the most amazing hours, minutes, seconds and special moments of my life. I love that man more than I love anything. Though, I will never forget my first true love, football. He went to the Utes game with me and what's super important to me is that he loves it as much as me. Which, he does! He was cheering and whistling louder than most people I take do. It made my heart super happy!

At the game a guy brought a sign that said, "My wife thinks I'm at conference" and "Text me when it's the Second Coming 1-800-GO-UTES!" --> Everyone was laughing so hard.

As I always say the third quarter is my favorite and it makes me feel the spirit, weird, I know! I appreciate it more than ever.

We discussed how trust is stronger than love - which is huge!
We discussed how I'm only 20 and yet I'm in love and how awesome it feels.
We discussed how he claims I'm not a needy girlfriend - wow! I though, I was.
I haven't cried yet, I'm just waiting for it to hit me.


Being in love is the most beautiful thing I've ever felt! 

Raspberry Sorbet and a Broken Pelvis

Do I care that there is a lot of Sugar? Nope! Is it delicious, yup! I will admit that my new obsession is Haagen-Dazs Raspberry Sorbet. Delish.

My pelvis is beyond messed up. It's overly annoying. I never thought I would feel this pain ever again. It's so foreign yet so familiar.

Oh, and these stupid red-lights in this city are going to be the death of me. I'm sick of them. All day that's all I've come across. I'm so over driving.

Rants ... gotta love em'!

The Love of My Life

I found the love of my life.
1. No pressure under any circumstance.
2. He gives me Eskimo kisses after we kiss.
3. He gives me a kiss on the cheek every time I see him and every time he goes.
4. He is dedicated, motivated and strong.
5. He is so fancy and always looks his best.
6. He always smells good.
7. He gives me butterflies.
8. He makes me smile all the time.
9. He loves me for me, he compliments me and he makes sure I know that I'm beautiful.
10. He is very future-oriented.

I always wondered when people said, "I know he's the one." How they knew. I knew the very first date, Denny's for pancakes! :) He ordered a salad with mayo. I just giggled. We talked about the most serious of things, on the first date. I LOVE that. Being forward and straight is how I like it. Not only is he forward and straight but he does it with a smile, a loving smile. Religion, Politics, Children, Education, and well Life in general we see eye to eye. How important is that? I cannot tell you in words how much I love him. There aren't enough of them.

He leaves for basic on the 3rd of October. It's beyond heart breaking. I love him though, and I know this is a good thing. I support him 152% with it and always will. It's just so hard when you find some stability in your life and all of a sudden it will be gone for four months. Ugh, how I'll do it is beyond me. The good thing is, I get to work on me. Not only with school but with working out, volunteering and making sure I know what I want in my future and why ... and when :)

If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they’d never ask you to.

A feeling that was a great refresher!

I'm not here to brag, okay ... maybe just a little. 

Today in my Social Work Practice II course we were talking about behavioral plans for families with children. I stated how a plan is used at my work, confidentially. (Don't worry you co-workers)  And how I could see it being used in family settings. The professor stated how it is too complex and how some parents wouldn't follow through because of the complexity. I said, okay, I can see that but at the same time if they were older children I can see it really working well. 

One of my colleagues then added, well if the mom has: two, three, or even four children and works and goes to school she won't want to deal with it. I was fuming. Okay, most of you know how I can get when I feel like I have a valid statement and someone goes above me to try and prove me wrong. At the end of class my professor pulls me aside and gives me some knuckles and is just laughing. I said, "What? Did I do something wrong? What's so funny." He continued to laugh for a minute before he said, "You're just funny." I said, "Why because I stand up for myself and say what I believe" He said, "Yes, but it's a good thing!" 

Come on! If you want your children to learn and have better behavioral patterns you're going to do the work it takes to encourage great behavior from your children. 

There are 18 more days until he leaves and I feel my heart breaking as the minutes pass. It's good for him and for our future, but it still leaves me a little sad. I need to put some positive quotes up and look on the bright side, but it's so difficult.

Trying so hard to give up.

I got into an accident last Saturday (the 27th of August) and since then my life has gone down-hill. I seem to make a step forward then make five steps back. Then, it repeats. I really have a huge desire to live life but it's hard right now and I haven't been in this funk for quite some time. It seems very foreign, yet like a good friend I haven't seen for a while. Good thing that life goes on. 

And it hurts to see all my ex's so happy. I'm not saying I'm not happy in my relationship but I feel like they didn't try as hard for me. Yeah, definitely a confidence booster! :) And he's leaving in 27 days, what a drag. I usually love countdowns, but I really hate this one!